There is something that lingers from the experiences of our lives.  It is part of us and pulls people to us or pushes them away.  We are what we think, what we say and we radiate something that floats whispers of invitation to those beings that are like us.  While we attract like people, some have something unexplained thing that gives a driving power to better ourselves.  There are personality combinations that somehow cause the ability in each of the partners to reach higher, to become a more noble and intelligent person.  The well spoken conversations of two people in love and in respect is an art form of itself.  It is something that I really,really want in my next marriage.  It is a large expectation that might be impossible to fulfill, but for me it is a necessity.

I have been around people that drive me to a higher level of humanity.  I can say, without even the slightest doubt that my children provide that driving force.  They already possess an inner good that I wish I emanated.  I can only bask in their goodness and be thankful for the wonderful spirits that fill their mortal shells.  I want that kind of relationship in a companion.  I want the type of relationship where all things, thoughts, actions, and morals are pushed to a higher level and the potential that my Heavenly Father planned for me becomes closer and closer to fruition.

I have been with those that want only to possess me.  Like ownership is some sort of prize. I  have wondered if that is because the independence I so deeply desire ebbs out into the air around me, hinting at some sort of elusiveness that becomes desirable.  I wonder if I am just some sort of conquest for those that are deeply competitive.  I also wonder what will happen if I let them own me.